A Brief Hello!

Catching up from a few weeks MIA

Hey everyone!

First of all, I want to own that I had a great thing going earlier this summer with posting on schedule, and have severely let that go for the last month or so.

Partially, I received some feedback letting me know that there was simply too much stuff to keep up with, so I wanted to step back and renegotiate with myself how much content to release, and of what styles.

The other half, is that I’ve just been really busy. Lots of life living for me in my world!

Also, I started my new job at Austen Riggs on Monday this week, and am loving it so far. For those who don’t know, Austen Riggs is a residential psychiatric treatment facility for people who are really suffering. It’s community focused and its mission is to restore and heal each patient’s self-authority in their lives.

Overall, I’m finding myself learning a lot, and excited to learn more! Still early days.

From this point forward, much of my time will be devoted to my first (I know, crazy) full-time job ever. As I learn the ropes of scheduling, hopefully move into my own apartment soon, and transition fully home here to this part of the world, I’ll be adjusting to a really new/and old life.

And, through that, there will be ample chances for me to release little blogs about life or podcasts or meditations. But, I feel my “why” shifting away from growing a brand or providing value, and toward simply letting you all know how my life is going, and perhaps sharing some things I’ve been learning or loving.

Without Instagram in my life, I also find myself largely without an outlet to share albums or artists I’m loving, or photos I’ve taken. So I’d like to start including more of that stuff here, as well.

With fall in the inklings of its nascent inception, I find myself delightfully tickled by the changing colors and smell in the air. I find it hard to believe, but it’s actually be four years since I’ve been here in the fall, for the whole fall. I’m really excited for it! For my whole life previous to living in California from 2016 to 2020, fall was my favorite. I feel that again. Here are some photos from the last few days!

Photos of early fall

Another exciting piece of news for me, is that I’ve begun a humble career as a part-time model (throw back to Flight of the Conchords). It’s a really interesting experience for me, given how insecure about myself and my appearance I was for so long in my life. Today, I feel a soft and firm pull toward inner-self-confidence, that appears to be lasting, rooted, and utterly mine. I really am loving this part of myself, and feel like I’ve earned it over the last many years of self-work.

I even decided to start a modeling agency (so far, just me) called Sovereign Models. The mission is to bring models with a sense of inner depth into their full outer shape, and visa versa. Depth and Shape are terms my friend Martin told me while I was in Paris visiting him years ago. His modeling agent taught them to him.

Essentially depth is who a person is on the inside, and how clearly they know themselves and are themselves. Shape is how a person presents themself to the external world—how they dress, walk, talk, etc.

For a long time, I was very functional in my attire, and looked down on people who “dressed to impress.” But I’ve learned that the more I can wear clothes that feel like me, the more at home in myself I feel. That matters.

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Overall, I’m feeling really lucky to be me. Not everything in my life is “perfect” per se, but everything in my life is mine, and that’s really all I can ask for. Or, really, I should say, that I am my own, and so my life becomes my own. And there is utter-self-responsibility and freedom in that.

Have a blessed day, week, and weekend.

Until next time,
Faolan Sugarman-Lash